Then go and read this post.
Before you do I will tell you that this lady (who I find seriously funny) doesn't mince her words.
I'm fairly sure that no one who reads my blog is easily offended by the odd expletive and I'm fairly sure you all share my sense of humour so I am certain you will find her funny too.
Even in the midst of a pretty crappy time there is always something to make you smile isn't there and she certainly does it for me.
I'm am realising that I have many more reasons to smile than I have to be sad.
All of the supportive comments you've given me lately are reasons.
The book Audrey gave me and the lovely ring from Miss Mac, more reasons.
This beautiful hand made card that popped through my door yesterday from the wonderful Sarn with such a touching and positive message inside really made my day!
Sitting in the van waiting for SD last night in a quiet country lane, breathing in the scent of newly mown grass and listening to the song of a thousand birds. The sun warm on my face. A pheasant wandering down the farm track on the other side of the road, the golden light of a late afternoon in Spring.
This sunset over the farm on Saturday evening (the photo doesn't do it justice, it was so BEAUTIFUL!)
These are the things that keep me going. These are the things that will be there long after this horrible time has past. These are the things that no one can take away.
These are the things that REALLY matter.